making progress – more ways than one

i’ve gotten some work done around the house, not quite back to our daily tasks standards but then Christmas season means lots of re-decorating so the list changes up a bit. i may be Master’s slave but i do still have a mind of my own and it should be used! lol this isn’t an arrangement where Master micromanages things – He would never like that.

we have a basic list – rules and rituals as well as a daily tasks list but i am free to change things up to suit whatever the current life situation happens to be. i guess the M/s twist is that all things will be done to the best of my ability and to what i believe would be the most pleasing and agreeable to Master. hope that makes some sense!

so the house is getting put back together and boxes are finding their way back to storage. *smiles* got a few more things to take care of but under the circumstance, i think i’m making out pretty well.

i managed to get in 15 mins of a workout and do some stretches as well. a small miracle considering my back is killing me and i think i tweaked it two days ago trying to take care of a particularly stubborn and animated little boy at work! *ugh* anyway ….

i woke up with an ‘itch’ lol an itch that was probably brought on by my dreams of chastity belts and the way it rubs and irritates in all the right ways! Eeek! the feelings have not left me today. i didn’t have to travel anywhere today and i’m free til 3pm so i decided to try the thing on again – to see if it still fits and to see if it still feels like i remember

it does! *gulp*

i’ve been in much better spirits all day, it’s like having something to center and balance my energies. it’s not really about keeping me from playing and getting into trouble, it’s never been about that. it’s more of a restraint like a collar or cuffs that fits snuggly, calms the mind and can be warn without being noticed by the vanilla world. that’s what it does for me at least.

i’d love to be able to keep these on, but until then

there is no rule about putting the belt on – only about taking it off! THAT requires Master’s permission. better hope i get a hold of Him before 3pm for work!! *wink*

❤ n

Master, the Daddy Dom??

** another older writing of mine but it may explain some things here so i decided to post it. this is part of the dynamic we were experimenting with back before my body decided to wreak havoc!! firstly, we’ve been married 26 years and i’ve/We’ve known that there are many facets to our relationship needs from the beginning i think – well, close to the beginning LoL – it’s the working out how to incorporate them without having to stop and start over that’s tricky. my mind can get very focused making switching gears an important ritualistic need for me. **

enjoy! *wink*

this may surprise some of you but we don’t just have a Master/slave aspect to our dynamic, we have a more nuanced relationship than that. part of what Master enjoys is my silly, playful submissive side. the one that gets a bit ahead of herself sometimes and has to be told to ‘settle down little girl’ *smiles* that always gives me a very warm, cared for feeling that leaves me vulnerable in a different way. it feels different anyway … to me.

Master is ready to switch gears for a little while, at least before we enter the bedroom!! lol i will need some time to prepare myself and to change gears from His little girl outside the bedroom to His slut in training inside. our ritual has set aside time for that and so far it has worked well.

Master has a very strong care giver side to Him and it’s something that needs to be fed and cared for just like His sadist side and my slave side etc. we try hard to stay in touch with what’s going on inside of us and honour that part as well as all the others.

just like our chastity has been modified to suit our needs, so to has the M/s dynamic that does at times become more DD/lg. i don’t have an age regression but i do have an over all ‘small’ feeling, like a bunny … i need to be cared for in a different way than my slave self. Master too has a softer side that wants to take care of His little girl.

my small side is still very much sexual which is probably due to the fact that i don’t have an age regression, although she is much more sensitive so humiliation and degradation are usually off the table then. it’s more teasing and gentle banter for us when in this phase of our relationship.

i was going to write about sitting in a puddle of my own drool when Master was using His fuck hole and training me to take all of Him for as long as He wished it but, since He switched gears …. i guess my brain did too!

i’m happy to serve Him however He chooses.

❤ n

messy disaster!

my house is a disaster, one of the things i liked about the Master/slave dynamic was that we came up with a cleaning schedule for the house. i’m home and free for a few hours daily so it left time to clean and workout

it kept my body health (-ish lol some of you know why i say that, i don’t want to get into it) and mostly it kept my mind healthy!

i hate clutter, i hate messy, i hate disorder and disorganized states of being. the only frenzy i enjoy is the state of sexual want and frenzy, nothing else! *UGH* my state of health was always taken into account of course but for the most part, when i get things working and moving i have a lot easier time maintaining it. both mentally and physically.

well that has all fallen away, just like my M/s. i’m sure it’s here somewhere … i just need to get past this mess to find it, i suppose!

see my mess?? the only thing i like about it is my Kenny Rogers tambourine! there is fall stuff to put away and winter/Christmas stuff to get out for the season!

my headspace is just about the same – SO – i’m going to get off here and post this mess and then get my arse up and do my best to organize and clean!! i’m still sore, i’m still at risk of injury but it has been a little more than a week since my body quit being so difficult and so i hope to get- no scratch that – i WILL get – a good amount of it done and organized!

M/s is so much more than just sex and kink for me. the structure and intentional living of being His slave is what my mind craves. it focuses me when the brain fog tries to steal away my peace and it takes care of at least one area of life so that it DOESN’T require my control.

cheers!

❤ n

a blast from the past

i wasn’t sure if i was going to post this daydream/fantasy that was a reoccurring when when we were practicing chastity (our version) but i decided, why not?!? lol i wrote it in a frenzied state after weeks of teasing and living as Master’s little whore. it was fun and very fulfilling and it was just before the first time things went sideways with my body and we had to stop.

we’ve not been able to make it back to this state of living and i admit it feels sometimes like life is just a constant state of chaos!

the constant teasing and playing with my holes but getting no release has got me in quite the state! this is closer to the type of site i wanted this one to be so i decided to share it now. it’s more of a first draft, first thoughts, first words type of feeling that i was hoping to tap into. let me know what you think if you can manage to get past the frenzy! lol *wink*

****** ****** ****** enjoy ****** ****** ****** my M/s reality , or so it was ****** ****** ******

i’m horny AF!! and i just can’t stop thinking kinky, naughty thoughts! UGH my little pussy is still all locked up, even in ‘small’ space Master is still very much in charge, and in control – especially of my puss puss!!

i daydream of hard spankings, of anal sex and of being Dommed! yup, you heard it, i dream of being humiliated and Dommed by a woman, a mistress that Master finds and approves! all things are controlled by Master but mistress gets to fuck with my head, abuse (consensually) my body and play with my holes!

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this morning the daydream was about having mistress sit on my face, order me to lick and suck her pussy and make her properly wet. once mistress is satisfied that i’ve done a good job she moves her ass on my lips and pussy over my nose so that she could ride my face and have me clean her hole – for Master to inspect and approve of the job i had done! some breath play here with her setting down on top until i was struggling in my restraints to move and breathe, she’d smack my thigh with a crop she held and lift just enough for me to catch a breath, then set back down and tell me to get my tongue deep inside her hole so that my Master would not be disappointed! all i can smell is the scent of her arousal as she washes over my face ….

finally she would move off my face and come around to lay across my body :O spread her ass cheeks and have Master come and inspect my work. He would lick her hole, and finger fuck her and check my task, He would smile His approval and say something like ‘I told you she was a good little slut.’ and then move away and let her have me again.

i can see Him in my minds eye, over to the side, leaning against a table with His feet and arms now crossed casually. He’s wearing His old worn jeans that are now soft and a bit torn, strings frayed around the small holes around His knees and upper thigh. His feet are bare and He’s wearing a t-shirt – because He knows this look drives me mad with lust, and i can’t have Him!!

His tongue has tasted mistress’ hole and His fingers have felt mistress’ flesh …. and He grins at me knowing what’s to come next ….. mistress has been playing with my tits and now she sucking my nipples, and she bites! OUCH!!

she traces her nails down my body, not afraid to carry right through to my clit and she never eases up. mistress moves around to face my cunt, she laughs.

‘you’re right Master C, she is already wet and dripping. you know your whore well. ha ha ha ‘

**** i have visions of her playing me and making fun of how easy it is to get in my horny, loose lips …. but i had to get myself up out of bed before i drove myself completely insane!!!

i’m still locked in chastity – i still can’t touch my very needy, very pouty little c*nt!! ARGH!

it’s just a fantasy, but it’s a fun one and Master having little slutty Suzie out the other night has brought it squarely back – front and center of my mind!

❤

things i miss

my health has been hell on our dynamic, it sucks! but there isn’t anything i can do about it

Master would never complain or blame BUT He does slow things down and even stop. i’m certain that’s the right thing to do but it doesn’t make me like it any better! *pout* so, i’m sitting on the floor, a very rare moment of privacy for me during the day, and i’m making a list of the things i miss.

i miss sitting on the floor, i miss sitting at His feet, i miss kneeling in wait for whatever it is He desires of me

i miss His hands – on my lower back, on the back of my neck, on my knee when i sit beside Him, on my skin

i miss the kink, the sting of the flogger when He catches me just at the tip, or the thud of the well placed heavy strike

i miss the fluffy tails *giggle* they make me tickle in places i’m sure i ‘shouldn’t *wink* they somehow always make me wet so He smirks when He tells me to ‘be careful not to slip’

i miss that evil smirk!

i miss ….. being me ….

i’m feeling better now, body is cooperating just a bit more. fingers crossed we can start again!

TGIF, friends!

❤ n