Anticipation!

so many questions, so many thoughts – soooo many wants!! *yikes*

it’s been a long time since i’ve experienced any sort of frenzy but f*%k i think i’m there again …. :O it’s been a while since we’ve played or kinked things up – much – but with my summer break quickly approaching, well ….. i’m starting to get more and more kink on the brain and less and less vanilla!

Master ordered some toys as well! that’s just adding to my frenzy … *Eeek* we wanted some butt plugs that could be worn with the chastity belt that wouldn’t cause any issues. i found that the metal or glass ones will pinch your tender bits of skin between them and the metal of the anal hole in the belt! *ouch* and NOT the good kind. lol we were forced to go without the belt for many days due to the injury, and even then i couldn’t really wear it to bed without backtracking on the healing process.

i enjoy wearing the belt for kinky reasons of course but besides the obvious it also ramps up my sexuality and libido. it ramps up my feeling of submission and wanting to be a good slave, and not only in the kinky sort of way but also on a personal, introspective humble sort of way.

it leaves me calm and centered and feeling like i finally know where i belong. this is why i’ve chosen to try out chastity and also why i think Master enjoys the outcome so much. it puts us both in a peaceful happy place.

now, if He could just start using it more regularly and consistently …. *ugh* i’ve been under the weather and also very mentally busy ‘people-ing’. i always find that exhausting and i think He doesn’t want to add to my plate, the irony of course is that being His slut and slave *IS* my respite from the rest.

of course He likely doesn’t want to rush into doing too much, too quickly since we are just getting things back on track again – BUT – my frenzied mind isn’t focused on that part!! 😛

as of now i’m locked up and testing out one of the new silicone plugs with a soft ring on the end instead of any ‘base’. it came in a pack of 3 and so far the first one is working out perfectly. walking, standing or sitting … nothing seems to rub and pinch in a way that is not wanted.

it is making me horny as hell – that part i have mixed emotions about! 😛

i’m going to have to remember all my early training if i want to get through this without getting frenzied out and ending my ass up black and blue!! without any orgasms as reward! 😛

❤